I found recovery on April 20, 2016 right after I lost my mother to her own addiction. I came from a broken home. When I was 12, I left home and not even a year later, I was using meth. I quit school because I was suffering from anxiety and depression. For years, I was in and out of toxic relationships that made me forget who I truly was. I struggled with self-doubt, self-hatred, and self-worth. I let fear hold me back from my full potential. I had my first child when I was 20 and that’s when my addiction worsened. The guilt that I carried and the burden I felt for my son because I couldn’t quit on my own and wouldn’t get help lead me even deeper and deeper for the next 8 years. I lost everything because of my addiction. I have never been so ashamed of what my life had become. I became pregnant with my second son and was using pretty heavily.
I ended up in jail and that’s when I was given the opportunity to come to the Women of Hope and have my baby. That was the best thing that has ever happened to my family and I. God has given me a new story to tell, one with a purpose. Today, I live for Him. I still struggle with myself at times, but God is with me in those dark moments, and that’s exactly what they are now… moments. I have healthy relationships in my life now and God is restoring everything that I lost. I have my boys and am a great mother to them that strives every day to be better, work on myself, heal, and break the generational curses that have run in my family. I never experienced true joy and freedom until I came to the Women of Hope and surrendered all that I was to God and let Him work in me to be who He created me to be. With God, all things are possible! I am so grateful for my awesome support system and Hope Recovery Church. I love each and every one of you.