I grew up with a void in my heart, always feeling as though something was missing. I tried to fill that void with drugs, alcohol, and bad habits. However, nothing was ever satisfactory enough to completely fill me up. The void I felt got even larger when I went through an intense depression after my divorce a couple of years ago. I began drinking or taking pills almost every day, and before long I found myself in a deep pit called addiction. I lost myself completely and every ounce of self-worth I had left slipped through my fingers.
I found out I was pregnant and thought I could straighten up long enough to have my baby, but in a matter of weeks I was using again. It wasn’t that I didn’t love her, I just couldn’t do it on my own and I was too afraid of what others would think to admit I needed help. At my worst, I was using $450 of Oxycodone daily. I began thinking I was too far gone and that nothing I could ever do would be able to save me or my unborn baby girl. Just when I was about to lose all hope, God reached His hand down into that pit to rescue me. My mother noticed money missing from my parents’ account, so she drug tested me and of course, I failed. She immediately called my brother, who used to work for a men’s rehab and he recommended the Women of Hope.
Two days later, I arrived at the center – broken, bitter, angry, and full of resentment for myself and others. I gave birth to a beautiful, healthy baby girl. She has lived with me ever since. Women of Hope has taught me how worthy I truly am and how to fill that void with a true relationship with Jesus Christ. Now, I get to be the mom that I always dreamed of being and my own mother has her daughter back. I’ve been set free from the bondage of addiction, brokenness, bitterness, anger, resentment, and unforgiveness. I couldn’t be more grateful for this ministry and all that it is doing to break the cycle of addiction for women and their families.